So recently, my boyfriend Daren has what the majority of people would say "relapsed". Daren and I would just say he's started to SH again. And I'm fine with that. I mean, this time it's because he's grieving the death of his mother, but we're getting through it together.
I've started cutting more to release more blood, and he's been cutting deeper--not deep enough to kill himself, mind you. We're not doing it out of depression; it's more of sympathy cutting. Any time we lose a loved one, we sacrifice a small percentage of blood. The blood loss is no big deal; we produce more. I am a regular blood/bone marrow donor, though, and sometimes use that for sacrificial reasons or simply not to worry my family and friends.
Mrs. Lee was like a second mom to me. So, this is our way of dealing with it. Please don't take that in a depressed, suicidal way, because it's not, at all. =P
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
My View On Self-Harm
Hey there, Anonymous again! Today I'm going to talk about my view on SH and SI (pretty much the same thing).
Alright, so obviously, people get freaked out if they see their friend or family member self-harming. I would too, if they were actually trying to off themselves. But I self-harm because I'm a masochist, not because I'm depressed or trying to kill myself. I have slit my wrists, but I'm careful not to make it deep enough to kill me. I'd never kill myself; I think everyone should die of natural causes and no one should off themselves because they can't endure the pain you may experience.
My boyfriend used to self-injure, self-harm, whatever you want to call it, but not exactly like I do. He used to intentionally break parts of him: His wrists, his arms, his legs, etc. He doesn't do it now, but he does skateboard and occasionally accidentally break something.
I don't believe in therapy or rehab, because I need to work things out on my own. But I'm not trying to stop. I could stop if I wanted, but I don't. And again, I don't think it's that big of a deal if you're just doing it for the adrenaline rush or because you're like a masochist, I think the only time you need to be worried about someone you care about self-harming is if they're trying to kill themselves. If that's the case you need to talk to them and try to find out what's wrong and do your best to fix it, because no one should die intentionally.
Alright, so obviously, people get freaked out if they see their friend or family member self-harming. I would too, if they were actually trying to off themselves. But I self-harm because I'm a masochist, not because I'm depressed or trying to kill myself. I have slit my wrists, but I'm careful not to make it deep enough to kill me. I'd never kill myself; I think everyone should die of natural causes and no one should off themselves because they can't endure the pain you may experience.
My boyfriend used to self-injure, self-harm, whatever you want to call it, but not exactly like I do. He used to intentionally break parts of him: His wrists, his arms, his legs, etc. He doesn't do it now, but he does skateboard and occasionally accidentally break something.
I don't believe in therapy or rehab, because I need to work things out on my own. But I'm not trying to stop. I could stop if I wanted, but I don't. And again, I don't think it's that big of a deal if you're just doing it for the adrenaline rush or because you're like a masochist, I think the only time you need to be worried about someone you care about self-harming is if they're trying to kill themselves. If that's the case you need to talk to them and try to find out what's wrong and do your best to fix it, because no one should die intentionally.
Monday, August 3, 2009
My View On Teen Pregnancy
Hey, Anonymous again. I know I haven't been updating lately; I've been busy with my new baby. And she's what brought me to make this blog post about teen pregnancy and my view on it.
Okay, so I'm 15, and I had my daughter Amie two 1/2 weeks ago. My boyfriend is still with me and he's very supportive. Although we both have other sexual partners, he IS the father of Amie; we got a paternity test.
Anyway, onto my view on teen pregnancy. Nature made it so that women are SUPPOSED to have a baby soon after their first period which is when they're what, 12ish? Obviously it's not for everyone; actually, I think you should wait a year or two after your first period, to have a baby. I dunno, that's just my opinion. Anyhow, I had my first period at 13 and got pregnant at 14, so yea....I think teenagers shouldn't be discouraged from having babies, and not encouraged. I think it should just be their choice whether they want a baby at that time or not, because it's often a matter of money or stress on the girl.
But my boyfriend and I have like, the same mind, so we both decided to try to conceive last year, when I was 14 and he was 15. We love our daughter and we know we were meant to have her at this age, because it's what nature intended.
Okay, so I'm 15, and I had my daughter Amie two 1/2 weeks ago. My boyfriend is still with me and he's very supportive. Although we both have other sexual partners, he IS the father of Amie; we got a paternity test.
Anyway, onto my view on teen pregnancy. Nature made it so that women are SUPPOSED to have a baby soon after their first period which is when they're what, 12ish? Obviously it's not for everyone; actually, I think you should wait a year or two after your first period, to have a baby. I dunno, that's just my opinion. Anyhow, I had my first period at 13 and got pregnant at 14, so yea....I think teenagers shouldn't be discouraged from having babies, and not encouraged. I think it should just be their choice whether they want a baby at that time or not, because it's often a matter of money or stress on the girl.
But my boyfriend and I have like, the same mind, so we both decided to try to conceive last year, when I was 14 and he was 15. We love our daughter and we know we were meant to have her at this age, because it's what nature intended.
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